"I love her and it is the beginning of everything." – F. Scott Fitzgerald
"The greatest happiness of life is the conviction that we are loved; loved for ourselves, or rather, loved in spite of ourselves." –Victor Hugo
Love is the whole thing
I’m not really sure where I learned it but I decided to act upon the advice. This is a letter to my future love/s in my life. It reads as extremely optimistic, maybe selfish, but maybe that is what I need more of when it comes to this sort of thing. I should set my standards high, what I want is what I want, no matter how shallow or how unrealistic it may seem to me or anyone else.
So here it goes:
I’m so grateful that we found each other. I’ve felt so alone without out you in my life. I thought I found you several times in my life, if I only knew who you actually were, what you were actually like, and what you had to go through for us to be ready for each other then I think it would have been so easy to patiently wait for you to come into my life. Having you in my life makes everything I’ve been through worth it. The ways I feel accepted and appreciated by you are like nothing I’ve ever experienced. The way we can understand each other, and feel what each other feels because we have had lives that have prepared us to understand one another’s experiences is what I always imagined it could be and more.
You’re more beautiful than I could have ever imagined you would be and your beauty is so aligned with everything I ever wanted that I don’t know how I could have ever confused anyone with being what I wanted. Your beauty is so perfect for me that it is incomprehensible why I ever even considered anyone else, ever. Your intelligence, your knowledge, and what you find interesting make every moment with you the best experience I’ve ever had. I wait for you to wake up every morning to get to know you a little more, I spend every moment away from you excited to talk to you again, I love when you fall asleep so I can dream of what is going on in your head. When you speak and share what it going on inside of you it is like everything good, exciting, and interesting that has ever happened in all of time is happening in that moment and I get a front row seat. I feel like I am the only seat you care about being filled in the audience of your life.
I love how you want me, and how much you explain how attracted you are to me, how I am everything you ever dreamed of in every way. The value you describe about me for just being me, and everything I’ve ever been, and everything I could ever be is the most comforting things I’ve ever experienced.
I’ve often struggled with even wanting to be alive before you and now I cannot fathom ever feeling that way again. I know that having you in my life gives me a another reason to live and that even when you are gone I will want to live as long as possible because the memories of you will make life worth living. Even the thought of you is the most fulfilling experiencing I can imagine, because every experience that involves you makes life worth living. Every thought, every memory, every dream, every hope, every sight of you, every touch, every time we kiss, every time I’m inside of you, every sound you make, all of it is equally sublime.
I love how you love me, how you want me, how you crave me, how you respect me, how you understand me, and how you want me. I love that you want and feel all of these ways about me, I love how how you express everything you think and feel about me. It is so perfect that I am incapable of questioning it. I love how I feel like every moment together is the best moment in our life and I can have the comfort of being more secure with you than I ever imagined possible. All of these things are so certain to me every moment that I didn’t even think think such certainty could even exist until you came into my life.
I love how we don’t need to share everything about who we were before we discovered each other and finally came together. I love that we can understand everything about who we were without ever sharing it. I love that we both feel like our lives started when we came together and that our past before that is not our past but other people that stopped being us when we came together.